Well HELLLOOOO Readers. Helloooo? You there?
Yoooo-hooooo...anyone? Tap, tap, tap...
I know... If you are there, I'm totally spoiled by blog readers and by those of you who haven't removed me from your blog reading lists.
Life has a very odd way of not turning out the way we hope, pray, and expect. My dream of life since I was a small girl was to be married to one man my whole life and to raise a loving, caring, close family. I have acted upon that at every turn and put my whole self into blessing my family.
My lifelong dream has been crushed. Cruelly and with malice aforethought, by someone bent on destruction and retribution. Someone who is frantic for appearances, and desperate not to have to live an authentic life.
I took a blog break because of some personal things that were happening and I was prioritizing, taking each blow as it came and still maintaining my home then getting it ready to sell, caring for my children and all that entails, and doing lots of activities with my kids and family and friends -- which I did and did well. I never would have known, in a million years, that I would have to PROVE I was functioning well.
Or I would have kept up my blog, kept each and every receipt, photographed each and every grocery trip, each and every meal and activity and journaled each and every moment with my kids and what I did every day.
It's very sad that some people are so clever as to rewrite history effectively enough that they get others to believe them. Those who know me know what truth is, and they have walked and are walking with me through it all, even as I write.
There are those who know and have known the truth, but have remained silent because they are afraid (some people are very intimidating) or because it's easier and more comfortable to "stay out of it". I am sorry for those people, because they have to live with themselves. I broke away and I have been pounded and shamed for it, yet I hold my head high because I do know the Truth, and Truth will prevail, with or without your help.
There are those who might wonder,
but you know deep in your heart,
when you ponder what you have seen and heard,
both the obvious and the nuances.
And you know what?
Even with the very high price I am paying, I am glad I broke away.
So very, very glad.
Happier and happier as each day goes by.
Thank you God for new beginnings.
God is still sovereign and He loves me.
I hope and pray that each of you is in a wonderful, mutually loving and caring marriage. But, if you are a SAHM mother, especially a homeschool mother, and your marriage is threatened in any way, my advice to you is to try your best and, while you are, keep track of all of these things, have plenty of witnesses, take photos and JOURNAL, JOURNAL, JOURNAL.
Okay, enough about that.
Life moves on and so must I.